Friday, October 27, 2017

Day 30 Apple apple on the wall...

Who's the tastiest of them all? I like honeycrisp and ambrosia apples. A lot of the patients I saw for diet counselling today said they ate apples for snacks. Despite refusing to eat apples for the past year I suddenly started craving them and had to run out at lunch to buy two.

Prompt: The orchestra on the Titanic famously kept playing as the ship went down. Describe the sinking of the Titanic from the point of view of the musicians playing in the ballroom - from the interactions to the sights, sounds, and sensations they experience as the ship sinks.

There are two ways to live life. 
Either be the leaf on the stream, carried by life wherever it goes, or be the rock that stoutly withstands every wave and crash. Be those desperate souls scrambling for the staircase or the stout gentlemen sitting with a brandy in hand.

The ornate, gold grandfather clock states that it is now 12:25. Less than half an hour ago the Captain ordered evacuation of women and children. How strange to see the flood of humanity surge while this timepiece stands its ground. Still dutifully reporting its time as though a fancy dress ball was still going on in its midst.

There are not enough lifeboats. Of course there aren't. But how could that be? Titanic is unsinkable.

Only hours ago lilting music floated in these halls. Ladies in their fancy dresses swept down the floor with their partners. The same white gloved waiters that were offering wine and champagne are now offering life jackets. One is even doing it with the same courtesy as though merely tempting his guest with an amuse bouche.

And the guests.

A screaming young lady. Maybe 18, 19 at most. Still in her night gown of delicate pink silk and lace. Her father's dinner jacket wrapped hastily around her. Hysterical and clinging onto the older man that leads her through the crowds. She is wearing a life jacket. He is not. He assures her, face smooth and voice calm as they pass by.

"It's just a momentary parting, my dear. The Titanic will be fine. I'll simply meet you in the morning."

He's lying, but she can't see that. They hurry up the grand staircase.

One shuddering breath. One moment of consideration. Run for the stairs? Abandon the violin. Take that last life jacket in the server's arms. Get on deck and into a lifeboat.

Horrified screams and screeching. The sound of running water.

Water now streams down the grand stairs. Flowing as though they were dancers hired for the night's entertainment.

Go down like gentlemen. Go with dignity.

The music strikes up again. It's hard to say who started it. Fingers that never betrayed the tremble of their owners. Music as cheerful as the passengers are panicked.

It gets harder to remain standing. The boat is tipping. The end is approaching.

Crash and shatter. Dishes and cutlery fly against walls and floors. Chairs and tables screech, desperate to cling to their positions, and fail. They start to slide.

Knees bent. Leaning against pillars. Anything to keep standing. Keep playing.

Lower class passengers. Their clothes belying their station on the ship. Wading through cold, knee deep water up the stairs.

A young father hitches his younger son over his shoulders. Tries to pull his white faced and terrified wife up the stairs. They are all soaked. Must have come from somewhere else.

Water soaking pant legs. Stabbing, like millions of needles. A bone deep chill.

The lovingly crafted, glittering chandeliers overhead flicker, then give out. Total darkness.

A halt in the music and chaos and panic surges in the darkened room. Water coming to the chest, now. Still the constant rush of more icy stream pouring in.

"It's been a pleasure, gentlemen."

An almighty creak, then bone shattering crunch of metal tearing.

Water overhead. The violin pulled away.

Silence at last. 

Sunday, October 22, 2017

Day 29 Selling myself

It seems like applying to residency is one big game of selling myself for all I'm worth. 'Step right up, ladies and gentleman. See this brand new product; fresh out of medical school. Able to see patients, take histories, and comes with bonus sense of wry humor. On special right now for only one residency spot at your school!'

Prompt 1: You can keep only one memory from your entire life. What will it be?

On the eve of Halloween, and on the brink of clerkship. A hastily cleaned apartment, every pot in the kitchen bubbling and the tables set with assorted snacks and drinks.

One friend after another trickles in, greetings with flurries of hugs and jokes. All sprawled out on the couches and chairs, a custom cocktail in hand and food in the other. The general din of chatter; the room bathed in warm lights. Scents of melted cheese and browning meat floating over the whole scene.

An apron around my waist, spatula in my hand. The oven heating the kitchen behind me. The boyfriend: one arm wrapped around my shoulders. Whispering in my ear. 

The kind of scene a silly little girl dreams of. Of wearing pearls and serving wine. Domestic bliss and still the excitement of playing 'house'. 

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Okay it's short today. I'm short on imagination and short on sleep. 




Thursday, October 19, 2017

Day 28 Chocolates are important

I'm finally getting over my illness and able to add food back into my diet. Chocolate is the first food I chose to add. Well, actually, nutella. Basically spreadable chocolate.

Prompt: You're the high school sweetheart from the previous prompt. Write your reply to the breakup note

December 25 2061

My Corey,

I miss you. I'm safe.

Wanted to get those out of the way first. Our rooms leave a lot to be desired. 16 of us share a big tent with a bunch of cots inside. The newer guys ran out of cots and get sleeping bags inside. 

I miss your cooking. The food tastes, looks, and just is slop. 

I just miss you. I wish I'm with you. 

I'm doing fine, though. Mostly at the base and just patrolling nearby right now. It's great about that contract. Work hard, but don't go falling for some Aussie coworker! 

There's not too much time to write, but I'll reply whenever I get a letter. Promise.

I love you, Corrine. Wait for me.

John

March 22 2062

Corey,

Things are heating up. We're engaging other groups almost weekly, now. No one's been hurt badly yet, though. We've definitely got the advantage here. Except Aaron was stupid and forgot to wear his helmet. He's alive, he just had to sit there while the doctors dug pieces of glass and shit from his scalp. 

I'd love to see you do yoga sometime. I'll pass on the kickboxing. 

I'll see you soon as we kick these guys back where they belong.

Love always,

John

August 1st 2062

Dear Mrs. Hart,

It is with sincere regret that I must inform you that your son, Corporal John Hart, is currently missing in action. 

I cannot disclose the full details of his mission under confidentiality policies but I hope it will give you comfort to know he is doing a hero's work. Corporal Hart is a credit to you and his team. 

We will utilize our assets to their fullest to find Corporal Hart. 

Yours sincerely,

General Erickson

February 8th 2063 

Corrine,

I'm sorry I haven't written much. Things are very busy here. I'm alive and well. 

Take care of yourself,

John

"Dude that sounds nothing like Hart." 
"Yeah, well, what would you say."
"I don't know, man. Shouldn't even be doing this. Should just tell her he's..."
"What, tell her over a letter that John's dead? You fuckin' serious? I just...don't want her to find out this way. You saw her last letter. She thinks he's dead."
"He is dead."
"We don't know that for sure yet. There's no body."
"There never is."
"She doesn't need to know yet."
"At least tell her you love her. John would."
"I can't. Doesn't feel right. I hope she'll move on eventually." 
"And what until then? You gonna keep pretending to be her lover?" 
"Piss off."

April 2nd 2063

Corrine,

I'm sorry to hear that. I'm happy for you. I hope you two are very happy together. 

John


Wednesday, October 18, 2017

Day 27 Send time turner please

Nevermind redoing that one painfully awkward conversation I had in high school, or spending more time sleeping (though tempting at 7AM). Just to spend more time with a pair of patients I had today. So much to sort through, so little time. So many time sensitive things considering it's a family practice.

Prompt: Write a 'Dear John' letter, breaking up with your high school sweetheart who's in the army

December 19th 2061

Dear John,

I miss you. I know it's only been a month, but I miss you. Come back to me soon. 

Are you taking care of yourself? How is it over there? Remember to eat well. You need food to have the strength to fight. 

Things are okay at home. Work is busy; we just got a huge contract in from some people in Australia. I can barely focus though. I keep thinking of you. 

Do you get your own room? Or just a bunk? 

Is it safe? Please be safe. 

My heart is always with yours. I love you forever. 

xoxoxo

Corrine


March 3rd 2062

Dearest John,

what's keeping you guys? I thought you'd be back, at least on leave, by now. I miss you so much it hurts. 

Must be busy there. Your letter was so short last time.

Are you beating lots of bad guys? We don't get much on the news here. I wish I could at least call you. I miss your voice. Tell me you love me. I'm forgetting what that sounds like. 

I'm being active while you're not here. Took up yoga again, and signed up for some kick boxing classes. It gets the frustrations out. 

I miss cooking for us. 

Come back soon.

Love always,

Corrine

July 14th 2062

Dear John,

I'm in Australia. It's stupidly cold here for July. Hemispheres are stupid. 

It's been more than half a year since I've seen you. Is your beard growing out? 

Our contract's going well. I'm getting a promotion and my own secretary. Woo!

I wish you were here. A bunch of us went out for drinks. It was lonely without you, I miss you. 

I just miss you. I miss you. I love you. 

Love,

Corrine


January 30th 2063

Dear John,

Why didn't you write me back? I've been waiting. The other families got letters from your squad. I know the letters are sent together. Did you get my letter? 

I'm panicking right now. Are you alive? Please be alive.

Corrine

March 24th 2063

Dear John,

I don't know why I even bother writing this. 

Do you even care anymore? Your last letter said crap all in it. 

I met someone else.

I'm sorry. I can't anymore. Take care.

Corrine


Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Day 26 gastro sucks

Okay I officially have my first every case of gastroenteritis. Bacterial, viral, who knows. But I can't go to clinic now because I can't leave the washroom for more than 10, 15 mins at a time. This sucks. Remember being younger and it was awesome to be sick, because you didn't have to go to school? I love clinic. All I want to do is be there, but now I'm sick and can't actually make the 30 min drive over, and I don't want to risk infecting anyone else. So I'm secluding myself in a corner of the couch and trying to figure out the best oral rehydration solution that doesn't involve me leaving the house.

Prompt: What your desk thinks about at night

Hey, hey! Hey, c'mon. 

Ouch! Don't just put hot stuff on me without a coaster! You see all of these rings? You wanna scar me some more? 

Yeowch! Watch where you're splashing those noodles, lady. Yeah, don't think I don't see you eating instant noodles when you have a full fridge. What excuse do you have. Can't you at least splash some water on me to wash that soup down?

Okay, finally, putting the food away. Time for work! Aah, sound of a laptop opening. Wait a minute, that sounds like Netflix. Oh seriously? Friends again? Don't you ever watch anything else? Why don't you get some real friends, hmmm? 

Geez, I hate this episode. 

Ugh, finally, are you working now?

What?! Come on, man. Don't close the laptop. You have a presentation due in two days! Don't leave it till the last- Fine. Go to bed. That's just fine. I'll just have to stay up all night tomorrow with you while you rush to finish that slideshow. Fine!

Okay, nono. Put your phone away. I can SEE you browsing Reddit. There's nothing on there. Put the phone down. At least sleep if you're going to be in bed. 

Two leggers are stupid. This one is stupid. I wish I was still in Ikea. 

Monday, October 16, 2017

Day 25 Med studentitis

It's not quite hypochondriac. I just perpetually jump to worse case scenario of any symptoms I have. This evening dinner didn't sit well and came back up a little violently. Of course bowel obstruction is my first diagnosis, despite soft abdomen. I'm diagnosing myself with GERD in a chronic background of med studentitis.

Prompt 1: Three objects in your childhood bedroom

I've had a few bedrooms in my time. My first bedroom in China, shared with my parents. Another bedroom in a condo we never occupied, bought shortly before my parents decided to make the trek to Canada. My second bedroom in Toronto, also shared with my parents. Third bedroom in Hamilton, though arguably not a child's room anymore, but the first time I had a room all to myself. 

Although I've occupied the bedroom in our condo the last, it was for so long my favourite place to be. We would stay the weekends out there, and I'd get my own room, away from the condo my grandparents and parents all lived in. 

It's also the place I revisit perpetually on each return to China. Where we have a traditional take out dinner and I flip through my old room.

Item #1: A cheap, plastic alarm clock. Shape of a little boy with a bowl shaped haircut and red overalls like the ones I wore as a child. With new batteries it still works, and shrilly calls out 'Get up lazy butt!'. My parents set it on me as a joke once as a teenager visiting China. I didn't take it very well.

Item #2: A pink and girly as all get out book. Child's book with is simplistic cartoon illustrations, proclaiming in fanciful letters it was a treasury of princess' tales. Simplified versions of Little Women, Anne of Green Gables and the likes adorn the insides. I like to pretend a higher literary interest, but there's so much comfort in munching on a pork bun while sitting on the floor and flipping through this book. More for the memories and nostalgia of a childhood escape than entertainment. But who says children's books aren't entertaining. 

Item #3: A musical carriage. A music box in the shape of a carriage, I should say. It's the one object that has since made its way back to Canada with me. I remember when I got it. My mother spurned anything girly for me in hopes of raising me into the boyish daughter she wanted. Look how well that turned out, says me wearing a literal pink ribbon in my hair. But it's lovely, and my mom gave in that day. Gold body and wheels, with a blue velvet top and red jewels adorning it. It plays a tinkling and frankly annoying piece when opened, revealing red velvet lining and a mirror. My first - and last - music box. 



Prompt 2: The toy you most treasured

Okay, I'll owe up. I love Pokemon. Loved it since the first cartoon episode. The affair only grew with my first pokemon deck. Heart palpitations when I got a shiny Zapdos card (legendary and rare for those of us who missed the fad). And a dedication to the handheld console games from the first generation of Pokemon Blue (when I was merely 10 or so), to crystal when I could finally play as a girl. My interest fizzled out with the change in platforms and my Gameboy advance could no longer keep up, but Ruby was my last and greatest love. A tiny red, translucent and glittery game cartridge. Over 200 hours logged on the game. The one game that was never reset or lost. And my treasured Blaziken at level 100. I'd argue one of my most tenacious achievements. 

Prompt 3: What's stored in your closet

We all like to say we've got skeletons in our closets. For most of us it's only said in joking, although some do imply that they have darker secrets not yet shared. On a recent elective, however, my roommate in the city was deep in her surgery residency. And one day while looking for a broom I found a skull sitting in the closet. Casually posed there as though it were an old hat that no longer fit fashions. I just ignored it and closed the door. The next day it was on the dinner table when I came back. 

My closet is hardly so interesting. Just my prom dress that I can't bare to part with. No skeletons except my own when I'm digging in there. 

Prompt 4: The next sound you hear and what caused it

My phone's incoming text ding. I caused it, of course. In my panic I've spammed my friends asking for help diagnosing my symptoms. So far I have 'What the hell, go to bed, you're fine' and 'OMG go to emerg'. Helpful, guys. 

Saturday, October 14, 2017

Day 24 The slow burn

Some days are more fun than others, some drag more than others. It's always the busiest days, when patients are double booked and there's a stampede in the waiting room that time seems to fly. On chill days like today when I have a 5 hr gap between patients, it's somehow more draining than running in circles all night. And it's only 45mins into the day.


Prompt: the taste of happiness


Some moments are just good moments.

Sitting on a patio, sipping iced tea and enjoying the first warm spring day of the year. Eyeing the cute guy sitting across from me, studying/gossiping with a great friend, and enjoying the caress of gentle spring breeze. Happiness tastes like jasmine tea, slightly diluted with melting ice and sweetened with sugar. 

Perched on a bench on the hospital's balcony. Idly chatting with friends while enjoying a rare moment of calm without patients or teaching on a busy medicine service. Talking casually of what, nothing. A cool breeze cutting the day's comfortable heat. Happiness tastes like bitter coffee with a splash of skim milk. 

Crouched in damp soil, sun burning the back of my neck. Hands streaked red and brown with dirt and dried berry juices. Joking with an old classmate about former misadventures. Happiness tastes like sun ripened strawberries.

Strolling through the fancy restaurant's doors, freshly finished with an indulgent multicourse dinner. Our first big trip together, taking a walk before going back to the hotel. His arm wrapped tight around my shoulder, and eyes looking at me with pure liking. Leaning up for a kiss and receiving it in turn. Happiness tastes like wine with notes of dinner on his lips.

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All right, short and cheesy, Just some of the best moments of my life I can remember at 1AM in the morning. Style of writing inspired by the awesome The Shipping News.

Some days are just good days. And they just make me so happy. 

Day 23 There needs to be a time machine for sleep

Wouldn't it be great? Just a machine that you turn on when you need to sleep and it stops time while you sleep for as long as you need. Becoming ever more relevant and vital as sleep falls to applications, studying, and generally zoning out and staring at a wall because it's been a long day.

A while ago I wrote a prompt where I misread the lead, 2 years of war instead of 14 years. So we'll catch up with Claire and Michael now, how they've weathered 14 years of Canada vs US.

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14 years is a long time. That's 168 months. That's 730 weeks. That's 5110 days. Well, actually 5218 days, if Clair counted correctly. 5218 days since the last peace talks fell through, and President Christopher Crux declared war against Prime Minister Laura Twain. That was a lot of days so see the war progress, stalemate, inch forward, stalemate, bloody turn of the tide, stalemate, pro- well, you get the idea.

Vancouver and most of southern BC was lost, absorbed into the new, enlarged Washington state. Quebec stood only because the native people still bitterly held on, pushing the border back south every few months in a desperate attempt to regain Quebec City. The cosmopolitan, artistic paradise that had been Montreal was swarmed over with hastily converted bases. Its once trendy restaurants sooty and dusty, stomped through with heavy boot footprints and discarded shells of ammo. The Notre Dame had been spared, as per agreements of their surrender, but little else had. As the war dragged on, previous conventions meant little. Hospitals, schools, and museums became pitched battlefields and high value targets. To destroy morale, cower those who remained.

Regina and Calgary combined its forces, making Saskatchewan and Alberta a formidable, cold prairie blockade that few could pass through. Ottawa was long lost, its Parliament Hill wrecked into smoldering ruins, and Canada's top command had relocated to an undisclosed location in Nunavut, past the arctic circle.

Ontario was no longer safe as the Canadian and US bombers ran alternate routes, carpet bombing the area in an attempt to hit each other's ground forces. Forests went up in flames, the Canadian Shield's famous rocks scorched or reduced to rubble across the province. 14 years was a lot of time to bomb one province over and over again.

Toronto was no longer identifiable. Although, if you really squint, a mock sort of silhouette of the skyline still stood.  Hamilton was reduced to the steel mills, working overtime to manufacture weapons. It was hard to say who still held the city, as it was a daily bloodbath and whomever held the city, got the weapons. Kingston held its own, the former bases used as little but historical tours in peaceful days revived and shielding soldiers again.

Claire didn't know what she believed anymore. The war still dragged. Was it even a war at this point? Or merely the new state of life. A life where the treaties and conventions they once held as shiny models folded in on themselves. A life where she aged too much beyond her years. A life that, at surface value, wouldn't seem worth living anymore.

But today is a golden day.

Today Claire got to wake up with Michael. Snuggled into the warmth of his body, head nestled in the nook of his shoulder. But this was not a very recent addition to her life. Since the ambush that got the rest of Michael's squad (he had been relieving himself deeper in the woods), he joined Claire.

All the pain and grief of loss, of nightmares haunted by his mates' crying (the sound of a grown man crying is a haunting one), of not having spotted the danger, of being the only one left alive. (What did he do to deserve living more than Kevin or Mo?).

But today those shadows fade a little more.

Today Michael got to wake up with Claire. Her body tucked into his, legs tangled around him and hair tickling his face. She eased his suffering where she could, but she could never understand the total sense of loss.

Today is July 25 2045. It's been almost 14 years to the day since the news stations exploded with headlines of 'WAR COMING'; 'PEACE TALKS BREAK DOWN'; 'BARRICADES AT BORDER CROSSINGS'.

Today is a joyous day.

"It's our wedding day."

Michael smiled indulgently up at Claire, framed by the early morning prairie sunlight. He closed his eyes to feel her lips pressed firmly to his cheek. Then winked when she complained about his bristles irritating her skin.

There was no one else here, of course. They were only as safe as their location was secret. A small farm house perched between Calgary and Edmonton. Claire certainly knew better than to trust safety to someone else.

No priest nor official to authenticate the marriage. No happily sobbing parents to walk Claire down the aisle, or tell Michael how handsome he looks. No group of giddy friends decked out in bridesmaid gowns and groomsmen suits to toss petals as they walk. No honeymoon but quiet, peaceful solitude in their little home.

Claire had never been big on dresses to begin with. Even less of them lasted the last 14 years. Shopping malls with glitzy storefronts were a faded tale of the past.

Still, one decent dress. Light pink and chiffon. Grazing her knees and cinched with a ribbon.

Claire picked wildflowers from nearby. For a moment she could pretend things were still good. Still peaceful. But it was getting harder and harder to pretend that the war that has destroyed two countries never happened.

A crown of little white and yellow flowers, some still with leafs attached, perched precarious on her hair. She looked up as Michael joined her, and smiled when he tried - and failed - to put a little yellow flower through the buttonhole of his jacket.

They said their vows in the wayward fields, and promised to love each other, come what may. Michael promised to treasure her for all his life. Claire promised to support him in all his needs.

They kissed and clapped for themselves, then stood in a moment of blissful silence. No air raid sirens, no ominous whirring of planes overhead. Just a summer breeze, whispers of grass, and the two of them, taking solace in each other's warmth.

In all the chaos, death, endless destruction and hopelessness of the world, they were happy right now. Safe, alive and together is all anyone can ask for in these troubled times.

That night, putting together dinner, Claire glanced at Michael's back to her while setting up the table. She'll wonder about the what ifs.

What if the war had never started. What if she'd never met Michael. What if he had died in the war. What if she had called out a warning when she saw the waiting ambush. What if Michael had been with the rest of his squad when the attack came. What if he found out she could have saved them - and chose not to.

Cross that bridge when she gets to it. Claire turned her attention back to the potatoes.

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Okay this sequel has been excruciating for me to write. I've been trying for like 6 mths.

Friday, October 6, 2017

Day 22 - goodbye my old friend

Still in the midst of residency applications. Still writing for some stress relief. I'm scheduled for a rather invasive and unpleasant exam soon to determine if my recent symptoms are indicative of early and aggressive cancer. I wouldn't be so worried if I hadn't just come off a rotation where this cancer was seen almost daily. But I digress. The worst part of it is the vile prep I have to drink before the procedure.

Prompt: 
You favorite article of clothing has finally out-lived its life (and then some). It's time to say goodbye, but you love it so much you feel a need to send it off properly. Write a eulogy dedicated to that piece of clothing and all the times you shared together.


We first met in a discount designer store. The entire store full of fanciful designer labels that I could otherwise never hope to afford. Still early into my university years, I eagerly snapped at the deals the store offered.

You weren't even my first choice. Mom picked you out and said here, try it. I dithered several times, but she shoved you into my arms. I carried you with the rest of my heap of clothing to be tried and fretted over.

Even after wearing you out and smoothing your red, soft skirts in front of the 3 sided mirror, I wasn't sure. I only brought you home because everyone complimented how nice you looked on me. 

You stayed, unworn in my closet for several more weeks. While the white one shouldered chiffon dress got its mileage. you sat with the tags on. 

Then one day it was Valentine's day. Valentine's day with my first, serious boyfriend. And I had an actual dinner and date planned that night. 

I tried and discarded every other red dress in my closet. You stared at me. I slipped you on and you looked right. 

The way your deceptively casual round neckline sits, almost t-shirt like. The careful banding across my waist to give the illusion of slimming. The wide skirts and all in that vibrant shade of red. It's a 'look at me' red. 

I wore you with glittery jeweled earrings and gold sequined high heels. We stole many looks that night, even as I tottered in the unfamiliar heels on slippery floors. 

You were with me that night, too. While we talked through the night and shared so much intimacy. 

Thereafter you became 'the dress'. I wore you to every big function. To a fancy brunch at a tea house with old classmates. You were adorned with a white ribbon neck sweater. To a group dinner after class. I wore you under my heavy backpack. 

And each time you made me feel so confident, so down right pretty, that I became addicted to the feeling of wearing you.

One of our last outing was the big Founder's dinner. You've arrived into medical school with me, and still remain my flashy, eyes-on-me red dress. I almost ha a disaster before the dinner. One of your sleeve's threads had come loose. The fabric no longer folded properly and became asymmetrical on both sides. 

I sewed/sutured you in a hurry and thought crisis averted. And we glided through a museum of Canadian art, pretended that we were cultured enough to appreciate the modern arts, and enjoyed a dreamy night of friends, good food and laughing. 

It wasn't that long after. It was our final pro comp meeting, and I wore you with my favourite white wool coat, the one with ruffles down the front. While signing cards for our preceptors, a pen fell in my lap. And ink all but exploded out. 

Black marks, all down the middle of your vibrant red skirt. I thought I would wash it off.

I got home and washed. Soaped. Alcohol wiped and cried. Nothing made it budge, and the area around the pen had lightened to a chemical stain orange. I brought you to my favourite seamstress and asked her to save you. She couldn't.

I sent you home to mom after that. I'm not ashamed to say I cried over the loss of you. You've been on countless dates with me. Draped perfectly through kisses and hugs. You've been to so many professional outings. Looked perfectly proper while I tired to remember to sit with a straight back. 

I wish we had more time. We had so many more places to see. But I'm glad to have ever had the chance to wear you.

Wednesday, October 4, 2017

Day 21 - life gets stressful, pick up a pen/keyboard

I'm in my last year of medical school. I'm applying to residency applications. It's painful, hard work that makes me strain to remember everything I've done that might make me sound like a good person.

In times of stress lately I've taken to staring at the screen and panicking that time won't stop moving forward. Instead, I'm turning back to my dusty, forgotten blog for some much needed writing relief.

Prompt: Make a list of alphabetical advice


A: Avoid the windows at all costs.

B: Barricade the doors with anything you have. 

C: Control your curiosity - you will end up as the cat.

D: Do NOT pick up the phone.

E: Evacuation orders have NOT been given.

F: Find a dark corner and stay there.

G: Get away from the children - they are affected.

H: Hide when you hear voices from outside.

I: Ignore the knocking on the door.

J: Joking and laughter attracts them.

K: Kill or be killed.

L: Leave your cell phone outside; it's a homing beacon.

M: Military is not to be trusted.

N: No one can be trusted.

O: Only I tell the truth.

P: Police are lying - it is NOT safe to go outside.

Q: Quebec is the safe word.

R: Run when I tell you.

S: Stop running!

T: Too late.

U: Up!

V: Viruses are a part of life.

W: Welcome to our side.

X: Xenophobia is impolite.

Y: You're next.

Z: Zombies don't exist, silly.

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Okay I'm not very good at horror but I saw this prompt and thought it lent itself to a different genre than I usually do. Maybe it's because I don't read scary books or watch horror films. You know what's really scary? Missing the deadline to apply to residency.